Sorry my life around here has been so sporadic lately. We are taking each battle one at a time and enjoying smiles when they come naturally.
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Losing Motsie yesterday was extremely difficult. But I am so grateful for all of your well wishes and prayers. I know it was his time. And I know that he is in a better place. But the pain is still raw and I feel it deep in my heart each and every time my mind rests from the day to day and settles on reality. I miss him. A lot.
The house felt empty last night. He wasn't there at Smith's bath time. He wasn't there standing on my chest when I awoke this morning. But wherever he is now, I know he's happy and in a better place. Seems so silly from the outside, I'm certain, to get worked up over a cat. But he has been with me for 10 years. He was my first baby.
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We are moving tomorrow. Finally. Into an amazing place. Kent's parents are kind enough to watch Smith overnight so we can unpack and get settled without tripping over a toddler. They are the best. A few friends are coming over in the afternoon for pizza and beer and an epic unpacking party. Cannot wait.
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Smith's birthday party is one week from Saturday. And with all the stress of everything else in our lives, I haven't given it much thought. I know what time it starts and who is coming. But after that, no decorations have been made. And no menu has really been planned. I just can't handle it until this move is over. I'm sure Smith could care less if he has a party that has been planned to the umpteenth detail. As long as everyone who cares about him is gathered to celebrate his life, that's what really matters. Homemade tissue poms and Pinterested decorations be damned.
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Love you all. And I'll be back on the reg soon. This blog hiatus has been good for the soul. But I do miss you.
14 comments:
thinking of you and hope your back soon!
so sad for the loss of your furbaby. hang in there. good luck tomorrow.
All pets go to heaven where there are bountiful bowls of food, water and treats and extra cushy pillows to nap on! Pets are people too! Sorry for your loss, but you're right, he's in a better place.
Moving might be a good thing for you b/c you'll be in a new place and won't turn the corner remembering things about him.
Best of luck!
Y'all were in my thoughts yesterday because I can just imagine how difficult a day you must have had. Motsie wasn't just a cat. Period. I cry for you knowing how you must be feeling. The actual deed itself must have been "easy" compared to the reality when you got home. I'm so sorry sweetie.
Enjoy your big move tomorrow. Y'all will be homeowners again, right?!?!? What a fantastic way to end a shitty week.
It is totally NOT silly for you to feel that way. Seriously, they become a family member. Your best friend. I remember trying to explain to Alex why I was so heartbroken when we had to put our family dog down. He had never had a pet. Now that he has been around my dog for so long, I know he gets it now. It's like a peace of you is gone! So sorry you are going through everything at once!
Good luck tomorrow!
have i told u i love u lots...oh yeah i texted it lol! Girl it isn't silly to be upset over loosing Motsy, he was your first baby, animals become family members, when we lost Squirmy earlier this year my heart broke I had her for ten years and I caught myself calling her name when I thought she would want a bite of turkey or missing her at Kelcee's bathtime, you will grieve girl but know he is in a better place now and not suffering and hey he maybe putting the moves on my Chloe...ha! OK so a beer and moving party sounds fantabulous you know how to make everything fun! Oh and no Smith isn't gonna care about the decor and all that stuff even though you make the most awesomesauce decor so I know it will be beyond fab and have Pinterest going hmm wish I thought of that, but girl I am so glad you have been on hiatus you have been one busy momma with one thing after another coming attcha! Hang in there pretty lady...love you
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Can I just say you are a rockstar! You are handling this all so well and good lord I'd be a hot mess. Smith's party will be great, no matter what. Order some large pizzas and call it a day! right?!
Good luck in the move!!!
Sorry about Motsie :(( 10 years is a LONG Time. I would be lost without my pup. I cant believe you are having party so soon after moving. I think I would have said eff it.
Sorry to hear about your Motsie. Pets are absolutely are first children! You're in my thoughts and prayers!!
i told a great friend of mine who was already starting to stress about her babe's 2nd birthday in NOVEMBER (cuz she's got law school and a job and a side business)...you know what? it's a 2nd birthday. they won't remember it. so get some cake, have some friends over, let those little ones rip open their presents, and save all the hard work for when you actually get credit from the kiddos for it =)
good luck with your move my dear!!
It is NOT silly to get worked up over losing your kitty! When I even think about losing one of my pets, I get incredibly upset! You did a very humane, selfless thing for your kitty and he's thankful you did.
Feeling the loss of a soul is never silly. Cat. Dog. Person. They are part of our lives, and I get it. Thinking of you during this time.
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