And you know what? I cried.
I cried thinking about how I have to lock my child into his room at night because it means that the past two years feels like a parenting fail. What have I been doing wrong for the past two years of Smith's life that he just can't and won't sleep? I cried when he realized it was locked and he started screaming "Mommy, I SCARED!". I cried because I am exhausted from two years of this nonsense. He's got to be tired too.
I just don't understand.
You name it, we have tried it. And nothing seems to work. And now that this toddler bed / bed railing / baby gate scaling has happened, I am just at a complete loss.
I just feel like throwing in the towel. Please don't get all Mean Girls on me. I don't need any negativity. And I certainly don't need any more suggestions, because I can assure you that we have literally tried everything.
I just need some sympathy. I just don't understand where we went wrong.