Did you sign up for the Target giveaway hosted by my amazing friend Annie? Yeah, you are lucky that I'm not taking that shit and keeping it for myself. You know how I feel about that place.
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I'm kind of in a funk again. Not really sure which end is up. Feeling a little emotionally drained and wishing I could tackle a weekend of no responsibility. I am le tired.
There comes a point every so often where I feel like I am one toe off of a very sharp cliff and my barracuda feet are about to cause me to lose balance. Any swift wind in the form of criticism, a bad burrito or an empty spout on my box o delicious will send me plummeting toward the Adult Life Sucks Ravine, head first.
It's not parenting. It's not being a wife. It's not being an employee or running a small business. It's not the health of my family. It's not that I haven't had 2 hours to myself in months. It's everything combined.
I love my life. Wouldn't trade my delicious (albeit tantrum pitching, shoe throwing, whining semi human) toddler for anything. And my Husband? God, without that man I seriously think I would sink. My job is great. My side business is going really well. My friends are amazing. And my family is always there for me.
Can't quite put my finger on it, but I am just feeling really drained. Maybe my upcoming birthday has something to do with it. Or could it be that I'm mourning the loss of my baby because he's getting all potty trained and shit while also converting to a full sized bed. I don't know.
All I do know is that I need a vacation. A day at the spa (if only I had time). A weekend away with my Husband to reconnect. I can't tell you the last time that Kent and I actually spent real quality time together for over an hour. I mean, literally months. We're talking 6. 7 maybe?
I just feel kind of lost at the moment. Hopefully this is just a fleeting emotion and I'll be back to my sarcastic and unapologetic wit soon. I know that's the KLaw you love. This sappy, depressed, asshole kinda sucks.
The least I could do to make up for it is post a picture of my dude. Obvi that's the real reason you stick around here anyway.
19 comments:
I just wanna say I'm sorry. And I've been experiencing this same feeling something heavy lately. It's so hard not to be able to put your finger on just what is going on, but have all these feelings without really knowing what to do with it.
Thinking of you...xo
With everything going on in your life combined with constantly being "ON" and not getting in a break, it is bound to catch up to you. It happens. I know that funk you speak of and am pretty damn sure that watching your baby turn into, well, less of a baby (he'll always *really* be your baby)will wreck havoc on a mama's emotions. I'm going through it, too. It is NO joke! Impending birthdays always put me one step from that ledge. They're rough. Just know, this too shall pass. Big hugs in the meantime. xx
I have been surrounded by sucky ass news for like the past month. I have been in a funk, too and I feel like the Husby and I could use a major break from reality as well... someday I guess? Praying for you babes!
Um...yep. On all fronts. We need to all schedule a mommy trip to get the hell out of Dodge and away from responsibility for a few days. Where the hardest decisions we have to make is whether to have a bloody mary or a mimosa with breakfast.
I hope you get to feeling better soon. I like your sassy attitude and smart mouth and I will be needing lots of sass (and ass) from you when I'm up at 2 a.m. in a few weeks with a new baby. You can't let a sister down?!
Yup, feeling just like this lately. I get tired of being mommy and wife-I need a chance to just be Shelly. Cody and I have a small weekend trip planned in a few weeks so hopefully thatll help.
Hope you get a chance to recharge soon :)
Girl, we all have those "stuck in a funk" moments... and whoever says they don't would be lying. Your allowed them and we'll still be here when you snap out :)
xoxo... thinking of you.
I totally blaim fall. I mean I'm autumn hater #1 but for serious, it's no coincidence that as the day's get shorter, people's sunshine and buttercup meter goes down bigtime. Do you have any time built up at work to take a day off? maybe get the hubs on a day he can take the afternoon off too possibly? It'll make all the difference in the world. You could take a nap and all the good things to recharge your battery :)
I wish I could babysit Smith for you. I know it sounds super creepy, but you and your hubby need some quality time. That always makes me feel better.
Awww, thats awful, I think that happens to all of us at some point - and it does warrant some you time! I hope you are able to find some time to take a breather, even if it is only a couple of hours, every little bit helps. Thinking of you girl.
I agree that gets the best of all us sometimes. Hang in there. I know that is easier said then done. HUGS!
I feel for you, Kristen. I've been there and battle the funks that come with the "I hate being a grown up"s. We're all behind you (admiring your nice ass). I hope you get some time to unwind (with a nice glass of wine, a Rabbit, and a Ryan Reynolds movie marathon). xoxo
Awwwww...hang in there friend! I know too well these emotions. They are such a struggle, but completely normal!
Just ship Smith off to the Lou and you and Hubs have a weekend away! Those weekends or evening a night away are so good for the soul.
Hope you get a break soon!
Sorry you've had such a heavy heart lately. I know what's it like to feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders with no relief in sight! Also desperate for a vacation. It's been too long. But with the current balance in our bank account, I don't see one in or near (or distant) future.
I feel your pain friend. I feel your pain.
I got the same shit going on over here. I work full time, take an evening class to accomplish my Human Resources certificate, and am a mother to 3 school aged children, engaged to a wonderful man and fighting to the death it seems for my divorce.Last week I felt like I was so damn stressed that I was completely breaking down. This week not much better.
So today I decided I needed a "me" day. I texted the boss (who am I kidding, I call the shots)and told him that I was not coming in today, I needed to take care of myself today.
Which leads me to the real reason I am actually commenting.... at what point am I drinking too much wine? I find that blogger moms talk a lot about wine while they are raising their kids, and I'm shaking my head along with y'all, cheers!! I drink wine pretty much everyday and know exactly what you are talking about. But i don't dare mention it on my blog because I am going thru a divorce and don't need any alligations against me when custody comes up.
But hey, I hear you on the depression thing. Happens to me too, about every month. I call it PMSing, but the problem is I already PMSed at the beginning of this month, so what is this shit I'm feeling now??
Anyway, it's 2pm here my time, and I want some wine. I'm just concerned that if I give in a pour myself a glass, then I'll be called an alcoholic.
Our kid-free trip last month definitely helped my mood, and we've taken lots of time for each other lately, even if it's just sitting on the couch watching TV together while T sleeps. Hang in there, and try to find some "you" or "us" time.
I hope you feel better soon. I've felt like that before and it just plain sucks. I hope you get some rest and are able to recharge.
Been there, done that, bought the souvenier t-shirt and I wear it every once in a while. I feel ya lady...it sucks. MrD and I haven't had a legit date night with NO kids in almost a year. Seriously. I was almost 9 months preggo last Jan when we went on our last "pre-baby" date...and I am still waiting for another one...which isn't going to happen anytime soon. Keep your chin up pretty lady - if I had a ton of money I'd send you a gift certificate for a spa day...and then I'd drive to wherever you are and join your hot ass! XO
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